At every turn I am reminded that I must trust the Lord.  He knows my heart.  I'm so glad He does because he knows that it's not Him I don't trust.  It's me.  Will I continue to see myself through His eyes?  Will I revert back to the person who thinks she doesn't deserve anything good of her own?  Will I miss what God has for me?  Will I choose something else thinking it's the thing He is preparing for me to do?  He is about to do something in my life.  I know this feeling well.  It is a feeling that the Lord puts on my heart when He is about to do something - in order to prepare me.  I don't know what it will be.  It's so me to have so many doubts about myself but when what He is preparing me for arrives - just like every other time - I will know it for sure.  

I consider all of the blessings that have come the same way.  My job at EAW.  I knew that was mine and it was God's leading that led me to it.  I'm so thankful for the people who were a part of me landing there.  The house I bought in Webster.  I was so worried that I would choose the wrong house but when I walked through the door... There is no way to describe it but just to say I knew.  That was that.  The same thing happened when we found the house we live in now.  

The difference between the examples I mention (though there are many, many more) and this time right now, is that I had some idea of what I was waiting for.  This time, I don't know.  I'm hoping it's something related to my future career. I can't go back to what I was doing before.  I can't even look for things there anymore without feeling terrible grief.  My future is somewhere else.  I just don't know what it will be.  

In the meantime I will pray.  I will sing.  I will read.  I will work on what I have to work on.  I have lots of photos to update.  I have a lot to learn about SLR photography - even though I've learned so much already and I am fairly adept at finding the best photo for any environment I've been in.  

I'm hoping you will need to have some photos taken and I will come and document some special part of your life.  

Hello there, it's Bonnie here on a rainy Sunday afternoon.  Church was wonderful and now we're home earlier than we thought we'd be.  What a blessing!  The weather is oddly warm for January.  I'm thankful for that because if it wasn't so warm, this rain would all be snow.  I do like snow but not too much.  

It's time for me to start living the way God calls us to live.  For Him.  Seriously, I've always tried to live for Him by following His word and by providing for my family and myself doing whatever I could find to do - like it or not.  I've never fully trusted that God would allow me to support our household doing something I love to do.  That is what I'm changing in my life.  God has blessed this undertaking at every turn.  I'm so excited to be on a path toward doing something that will bless others.  I don't mind saying that I've always been a "people pleaser".  It's not that I find my own worth in what others think.  It's that it genuinely makes me happy to see others happy.  That's my motive.  

I love all things creative.  I write songs, play guitar, sing, paint, cook, write stories, and...  I take photos.  I hope to bring light to peoples eyes when they receive their pictures.  I also am a real estate sale agent with Coldwell Banker at the Leominster Massachusetts office.  That is another thing that I love to do.  

Eventually, I will include other creative things on this site.  In the future this site will have a gallery but since I've only just begun I am keeping to the basics.  

Ok - have a good week!!