Trusting and Moving Forward

At every turn I am reminded that I must trust the Lord.  He knows my heart.  I'm so glad He does because he knows that it's not Him I don't trust.  It's me.  Will I continue to see myself through His eyes?  Will I revert back to the person who thinks she doesn't deserve anything good of her own?  Will I miss what God has for me?  Will I choose something else thinking it's the thing He is preparing for me to do?  He is about to do something in my life.  I know this feeling well.  It is a feeling that the Lord puts on my heart when He is about to do something - in order to prepare me.  I don't know what it will be.  It's so me to have so many doubts about myself but when what He is preparing me for arrives - just like every other time - I will know it for sure.  

I consider all of the blessings that have come the same way.  My job at EAW.  I knew that was mine and it was God's leading that led me to it.  I'm so thankful for the people who were a part of me landing there.  The house I bought in Webster.  I was so worried that I would choose the wrong house but when I walked through the door... There is no way to describe it but just to say I knew.  That was that.  The same thing happened when we found the house we live in now.  

The difference between the examples I mention (though there are many, many more) and this time right now, is that I had some idea of what I was waiting for.  This time, I don't know.  I'm hoping it's something related to my future career. I can't go back to what I was doing before.  I can't even look for things there anymore without feeling terrible grief.  My future is somewhere else.  I just don't know what it will be.  

In the meantime I will pray.  I will sing.  I will read.  I will work on what I have to work on.  I have lots of photos to update.  I have a lot to learn about SLR photography - even though I've learned so much already and I am fairly adept at finding the best photo for any environment I've been in.  

I'm hoping you will need to have some photos taken and I will come and document some special part of your life.