At every turn I am reminded that I must trust the Lord. He knows my heart. I'm so glad He does because he knows that it's not Him I don't trust. It's me. Will I continue to see myself through His eyes? Will I revert back to the person who thinks she doesn't deserve anything good of her own? Will I miss what God has for me? Will I choose something else thinking it's the thing He is preparing for me to do? He is about to do something in my life. I know this feeling well. It is a feeling that the Lord puts on my heart when He is about to do something - in order to prepare me. I don't know what it will be. It's so me to have so many doubts about myself but when what He is preparing me for arrives - just like every other time - I will know it for sure.
I consider all of the blessings that have come the same way. My job at EAW. I knew that was mine and it was God's leading that led me to it. I'm so thankful for the people who were a part of me landing there. The house I bought in Webster. I was so worried that I would choose the wrong house but when I walked through the door... There is no way to describe it but just to say I knew. That was that. The same thing happened when we found the house we live in now.
The difference between the examples I mention (though there are many, many more) and this time right now, is that I had some idea of what I was waiting for. This time, I don't know. I'm hoping it's something related to my future career. I can't go back to what I was doing before. I can't even look for things there anymore without feeling terrible grief. My future is somewhere else. I just don't know what it will be.
In the meantime I will pray. I will sing. I will read. I will work on what I have to work on. I have lots of photos to update. I have a lot to learn about SLR photography - even though I've learned so much already and I am fairly adept at finding the best photo for any environment I've been in.
I'm hoping you will need to have some photos taken and I will come and document some special part of your life.
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